It's still the same

Well. It's 1.06am now. I'm right in front of my computer now but I don't know why I can't keep my mind away from you. I can't make sure the feel I'm having now is good or bad but I know that you won't change your mind no matter what. lolx. I'm so moody now someone cheer me please. =( . Many things appear in my mind in a sudden but I don't know how to describe this feeling. It's FUCKING killing me. ;( . All the effort and time I had put on you it just end up I'm just wasting my time all the time. Still every thing remain the same and it's clean, real clean. I was so wrong for so long, I'm just trying to please myself. Well maybe it's still worth it. =) . You still gave me happiness sometime and someone to talk to. LoL. Until now I'm still trying to please myself. I'm such a PHAILURE. >.<.